Lost Wish

Dedication: S. K.

Status | Progress: Active

Date | drafted: Apr 17, 2018
Date | published: Apr 17, 2018

Author: Scrappy Nobody

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Lost Wish

I don't know

the way out

I am lost

in my mind

in my heart

is it heart

is it mind

science says

it is all

in my head


but when I see

your face

all the feels

and the thoughts

all the lust

for self-harm

the yearnings

for the death

the sadness

the madness

endless pains

all stops


I see it

life is wroth

to be lived


when I saw

your face

that one day

you were mad

at my text

when I saw

your face

that one day

that moment

I just wished

your lips

didn't want

all the taste

in the words

but my lips

what a wish

what a man

did I just

wish to say

my heart wants

your lips

what a heart

what a mind

what a man

where are my

senses of

right and wrong


I believe

in the book

in the God

in Muhammad

is it right

is it wrong

it is wrong

why should I

want a kiss

when you're

not my wife

I'm mad

I'm sad

your lips

the lips of

other man

endless pains

all beings

once again


I never wished

to love you

the old man

the young girl

helpless heart

hopeful head


all the things

that went wrong

and you said

you don't want

drama from me

how can I

say nothing

with the pain

desires

I just knew

they existed

of the books

I regret

when I read

before you

never felt


is it love

is it lust

romance but

it is not

did I wish

you lust me

or love me

I don't know

what I want

I don't know

what is right

what is wrong

I don't know

what my need

is about


I should walk

I should walk

I should run

I should run

I should take

a single line

go away

straight

far away

straight

no stops

but science

disagrees

any lines

on a globe

is a circle

I'll be

circling

around you

just as the

lovers do


oh, dear Lord

is it right

is it wrong

is it heart

is it mind

is it need

is it lust

is it love

I don't know

what I want

what I feel

what I think

how to judge


oh, dear Lord

I begged you

for the death

that one long

overdue

visit by

death angel


oh, dear Lord

the young girl

her smile

her feelings

if without

I would die

is it lust

is it love

is it bond

from soul

from heart

then body

it is not

is it right

is it wrong

religious

it is not

creatures

aren't meant

to die for

death sentence

love is not

is it wrong

is it right

is it just

or corrupt

then reason

it is not

when I did

to know her

never got


oh, dear Lord

long ago

I begged You

for my death

I gave up

all the joys

on the earth

she can't be

Your sign

she can't be

Your exam

foul servant

that I am

I will fail

even if

no exams


oh, dear Lord

what is love

what is lust

who is she

who am I

what is right

what is wrong

You witness

I never

wished a kiss

on her lips

but the one

painful mad

sad day

heart asked

want she

these lips

brain said

you're sad

you're mad

you see not

yearning

in her eyes

it is not

heart said

so it be

my wish

that it be

her wish

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